Zyyenoh in the Hungerland.

Bfast

2012-02-17T13:24:00.002+03:00

Shoes and Everything in Between

2012-02-17T11:47:00.002+03:00

Ive never been a sucker for shoes.Imeldefic has never run thru my system.Im more on Bags,clothes or jeans but rarely do i remember that i need a pair of shoes to walk me a mile..Now i understand while ladies go gaga for shoes with its shapes and sizes and colors..

RANDOM-ness!! :D

2011-12-23T21:53:00.002+03:00

Lurve!!

2011-12-22T19:00:00.000+03:00

Happy National Day, Qatar!

2011-12-18T17:22:00.003+03:00

You Know I love you!! :)

Qatar National Day is a national commemoration of Qatar's unification and independence and is celebrated on December 18 every year. Qatar National Day emphasizes the identity and history of the country, embodies the ideals and aspirations that the country was founded on and pays tribute to the men and women who participated in building the nation, especially the Al Thani family, the current leaders of Qatar.
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qatar_National_Day)

A Year Older but None the wiser..

2011-12-16T06:26:00.026+03:00

This might probably be my last one in the city.Ive been spending the past 3 or 4 birthdays here.

Im such an embodimient of a touche Hopeful Sentimental Fool..Thats just me! I hold on to simple yet smallest things no matter how Invaluable those might be for others..I always take them with as a keepsake of once precious moments or days of my yesteryears and certain moments i cling to which makes me a sort of a clingy type of person which i dont think is bad at all..

While we were sipping on our half of a hundred QR of coffees and Lattes at COFFEE BEANERY in Ramada,the Banats wrote those tiny weeny notes of luvin and greetings for me..Its always the Thought that counts right? it may not be Hallmark-y but they were all sweet enought to drop a word or two.. :))

--I fell inlove at the first sight. Thank You Ya Banats for the Newest addition to my growing Messenger bag family...But more than that Thank You for the friendship..You know i heart you all.. <3

Hello there December!

2011-12-01T22:06:00.002+03:00

Goodbye November! Hello December..Alhamdulillah We've meet once again.I cant belive how time sky rockets in a snap and just like that!! Where has this year gone? I have been way procastinating i havent even done half of what i had things in mind at the start of the year and now its Done..Oh how quickly the year has flown by..Yay!! It wont be long enough and ill say Hi to aging creams and the likes.Im soo afraid of getting old im only good at being young.. :(

2011-11-30T06:11:00.002+03:00

QatarESCAPADES: Part 2

2011-11-30T06:10:00.008+03:00

Snap Snap Snaps!

2011-11-29T22:36:00.008+03:00

Insides of Villagio, Hyatt Plaza, The Aspire tower

Since the invention of Camera SLASH Phones..Everyone, I mean everyone in the face of the planet is snappin and clickin here and there to whatever they take sight to or feel significant enough to be taken memory of..So being a Picture afficionado that iam, Iam just in dire need to just have my phone swarmed with captured moments,sweet nothings,random shots and the likes..I wont Forever be residing here so i might aswell use all i have left and have all the corners of Qatar or the places ive been to or foods i might be eating in my very palm when i get home..

SEALINE PARADISE

2011-11-23T15:30:00.006+03:00

Foot Prints in the Sand --The ocean might wash away every step but in our hearts forever it will be..

Wake me Up when Septmber ENDS

2011-09-01T20:45:00.008+03:00

Oh Hello there September..Why must you welcome me with Tears in my eyes and a Heart mashed in shreds..How could i ever forget you when you took away my Grandmother dearest of whom i love and adore to death..You could never imagine my pain right now or how painful it is to be so far and miles away from your family..where all you can do is but Cry and feel helpless and bawl your eyes out in despair and wipe your tears away and struggle to show everyone your fine and Ok..I wish i had wings so i could fly on her last days,i wish i could have been there to hold her hands that could barely grasp,i wish i could have seen that grin one last time..that edentulous grin that i swear i wouldnt trade with bunch of dirhams.I wish i had been there as she breath her last breath away or smother her with kisses,softly comb her smooth white hairs and hug her once more..Soo tightly that i would never have to let go.I wish i could her smell her one more time and place it in bottle and bring it with me.Oh how I wish i had been there along and see her every pain and every move and every breath and every smile then maybe this wouldn't hurt as much as it hurts now,how it rips my heart in two and how memories of her brings back all the pain ive felt the moment i heard that dreadful phonecall that she finally left us or how regretful iam that i wasnt there and that ive never ask forgiveness for not being the perfect grand daughter that im never even close at..But what hurts me more is the thought that i wouldnt be seing her Ever again..Forever.That i wouldnt have another chance to make her smile and laugh,kiss her old cheeks and hug her thin body that has been witness of how time had passed and the pain she went thru and just everything little small things she does..That i wont ever see Ama again with her on his side of bed and how the twinkle in his eyes would drastically change with Ina now gone.. That when i get home and visit her room all i would see is an empty bed.I hope her smell lingers but im afraid time will wash away every sign of her that all we'll have are memories that might fade one day..Ya ALLAH be merciful to her for truly you are the most merciful,wash away all her sins and misgivings.Grant her a house in your Paradise..

2011-08-03T10:33:00.003+03:00

Ramadan Mubarak from Dawha with Lurve!!

Yey!! Its that time of the year again,MashaAllah where supplications,duas,prayers and good deeds is multiplied to the nth level.Its my favorite month growing up(Well,every muslims that is.) aside from my birfdtftdttthday where I only got the license to blow a cake when I was of legal age..on my 18th.Haha.Back when I was kid,I would always correlate Ramadan with plenty of mouthwatering delicacies here and there my self sacrificing would tirelessly make...Where our large table for 11 seems small enuf to fill with and where I have the sole right to cut a huge watermelon because my father dearest hands it to me having known that its my favorite..which I get to divide in unjustly,I get to have the biggest slice of course,its a given fact..Aww really miss doing such stuffs.Everything is quite complicated nowadays.I want those old daays back!!

RANDOM MUSINGS

2011-07-02T11:26:00.003+03:00

SubhanAllah..Its amazing how time just sky rockets like very fast and how the world runs for it.In just one blink of an eye everything changes and you are left in dire need to wear a reliable sneakers to help you keep track of the race..That indeed we are revolving in a circle constantly moving up and down.One moment you are deliriously happy and then you wake up sobbing and crushed into pieces by the worlds injustices and the pangs of life and the People that goes with it..C'est la vie! Its crazy as it gets but we have to live with it and learn not to take life too seriously..God is just Up above in complete possession of our Life..

2011-06-06T14:44:00.011+03:00

MONDAY BLUES and everything in Between!

Its another Manic Monday..Blame it on the humid weather or little something somethings that has gotten into huge something or anything but i have been feeling so down lately..And by down i mean sad and lonely and hot tempered and sensitive and more..Its one of those days where i get to renew and exercise my right for speech and self empowerment either by fighting back by lashing out words in yo face or in my mind(Yeah right!!) creating confrontational scenarios where i have killer movie lines which will left the opponent mum and which will make me of an actor which isnt happening coz 1.) I hate confrontations, 2.) i hate impromptu stuffs 3.) Im too nice to be doing the above..But because i have to vent all those boiling angers within oftenly than not i always always love to kill them by my utter Loud silence which leaves them wondering what the hell is going on..Punching 'em right through their faces is Again sort of unexcusable since i have such a dainty for a fist that will probably break in a slightest blow and i wouldnt want that ever happening..My oh my!! and last but not the very least: Theres no violent bones in my system..Well if ever i get to have my better half in the far future then i guess that will be an Excemption of course..I guess i have to discipline my Man even it means being brutal..Oh well..A wifes gotta do what a wifes got to do..I say protect them from the outside world..Bwaahaha.(KIDDING!!) Anyhoo,being the self confessed emotional wreck that iam now ive choose the path of silencio and kaliwalli (arabic term for WHATEVER!) thus here iam pouring it all out.I opted for tranquility and serenity by keeping my mouth zipped up and kept my mega out bursts to me myself and i..Its more safer that way! Honestly i dont see anything productive by fighting back..Im just gonna strain myself into something pitiful and futile.Again,Kaliwalli.And where else would i run in times like this?? or what i will likely do or would not do?? Hmmm. Lemme count the ways..

I kneel down and Pray hard..Dhikr! Dhikr! Hasbiyallahu Wa nimal Wakeel..
I run and rant around with my official shockabsorber/crying shoulder and bestfriend..
I listen to Breaking Benjamin as he Rocks and Roll..I turn the headset full blast and Alternative does the soothing.All kinds of them aslong as it means hurting my ears with those killer drums and strums of guitar..
I write and write and write..until iam lost in words.
I sleep and send my self to dreamland.Anywhere but the real world..
I do something to take my mind off to whatever is stressing me..I clean and i Arrange things like Crazy!
Shopping.My new found instant remedy.I guess thats whats good about Earning your hard toiled money,you get to have the chance to splurge all you want and shop..

I pig out. A lot.More than usual..Mcdonalds has been the Official and Instant Pick-me-Upper for how many years Now.. even back then when i was just a strugglin Dental student making the ends meet,begging toothless people do them a favor,when i get below average scores albeit my burnin all the midnight candles at night.I always end up running to my reliable Large fhries,Large Coke and Cheese Burger and cast my worries and fears away.. and Today is not an Excemption.I summoned all the courage im capable of having and dine alone even it means being stared at.And with an additional cast to my large buddies: Welcome you Chicken Salad with 1000 island dressings and Cruttons.Lots of them.and then IM OK!! :)

QATAR with LOVE

2011-05-29T23:57:00.003+03:00

Redness for Shoes.All my bags are packed .

2011-05-29T16:36:00.000+03:00

Doha with love Oh how do love thee? Let me count the ways.I've been meaning to write a decent post solely on this small rich persian gulf with all its bountiful beauty yet I always fail to make a sensible enrty worth posting or reading.It has taken me far too long to find the words.

Tsibogs with all its Silver Lining! Arf !:)

2011-05-29T01:27:00.008+03:00

I used to be just a shy plain Jane weighing just 48 kg with just an appetite that swings thru moods..Back in highschool i was more of all bones and no meat type of girl i could literally swirl in the sudden heavy blows of the wind then College came and i was sent in the land far from my comfort zone.A place where you are prohibited to drink that of a tap water because really it might help you quench that thirst but it will prolly coz you harm than it will do you good.

DE-CLUTTER

2011-05-29T01:03:00.006+03:00

Just this morning I realized iam in need of general de-cluttering. Yes iam a mess right now.My room is in chaos.Ive been proscastinating all month long listing my to do’s and making ARRANGE ARRANGE and ARRANGE on top priority but of No use..I alwasys end up curling at the same corner of my bed watching movies and then bawling in tears or laughing out loud.My cabinets is a picture of Libya being rip in pieces..Haha.And my lappie? Awww..Dont even get me started.Its another story.Local D and Local C is being terrorized by Old pictures,gazillions of Picture I stumbled on every sites I visit and they are categorized uto such..One I find cute,I adore,I love love and so on and so forth and the Rest is nothing but photos of Sentimental value that just a thought of them being onto the trash can bins breaks my heart in three..

* I have an Unpretty feet but out of respeto and loyalty ill have to post them jst so the world cud say what this feet has walked before i get to where iam now..Chaar!! Asan na ba ako? Hmmp. :)

-Samer Abdo in the House

So before i send them all to the Recycle Bin just one press away from here (id have to give up some and eradicate some more few..) i might aswell have them in here..

--My newly bought Pillow sheets! yay

2011-05-16T11:22:00.004+03:00

Iaam Soo Baack!

After 2 years hiatus and an utter silence,here iam lost in thoughts and in words trying to pick up what i left..Out of Serendipity or something, I've stumbled back on my plain old blogspot account and fell all over again.So now were rekindling the old flame as we speak.I've been out of the blogging scene for soo long I have no idea as to how to write again.So much things has change in the personal blogging arena nowadays i cant seem to keep up..No i really cant keep up! Im like technology illeterate or something..Anyhoo,I have so much to tell and more that all this ideas are rushing thru my mind all at the same time its hard to keep track of which will come first or not jeopardizing my plan of writing a sensible welcome back speech..Hmmp! So Yes Iam baack my dears.. In Full throttle..(like as if i have people following me..) Haha Dream On! So i will try my hardest to be a little sensible and witty in my future entrie so bear with me..Chaar!! As if AGAIN! :)

Twelve Sixteen

2010-12-16T23:51:00.004+03:00

~Sadhams Mini Cake for me, ~MNG bag from the Banats ~Shila from Madam Fatma..
Thany you Guys!! :)

2009-12-16T13:47:00.012+03:00

twenty Something and semi Happy! ;)

Im older today than yesterday but younger than tomorrow..Here's to another year.Weeh. :) thank you God for all the blessings and good tidings you have bestowed upon me and my family.Ive learned to value every blessings no matter how little or big it maybe.On looking at the brighter sides of things and worry not on things i have no power of changing.To be more thankful of what i have and have had in the past.To learn from my mistakes and live with it.

Im steppin in another Year of existence.26 is like a being semi old it sounds a little off in my ears.Its hard to believe how 10 years has passed so quickly and just so abrupt that i havent take a hold of it.10 years of being away from home to be exact.I still remember turning sweet 16 in Cebu back in my freshman year.I was like an innocent plain jane lost in wonderland.Time flies like Crazy!

Happy Birthday to me..Ill dwell in Positive thoughts and Endless Possibilities!

XOXO

2009-12-12T09:59:00.020+03:00

COUNTING THE DAYS!!

Im broke..3 days before my birthday.how cool is cool huh?! Im such a good Ate that i kept my hard kept promise and bought my brother dan an 8gb ipod touch and 10 mega pixel cam for sissy Hash.. Lesson learned: dont make promises (especially when you dont mean it..) because they will tend to remind you every now and then.and they will bug you to death.and choke you to persistence until you give in.and surrender in the name of Sibling Love.Good thing Mr. Rafek, an indian a.k.a Bumbay in Filipino context is kind enough to give it to me on installment basis.Meaning i will probably be paying it for the next 6 m0nths or so.Lucky him he will get to see me every first Fridays of the m0nth and Poor me as i say goodbye to my shopping splurges..Ill bet theyll probably jump for joy as soon as they receive it.the remaining others will be greeniest with envy and text messages will be down pourin like crazy.in other words Uulanin ako ng teksts.and may i remind my self that i have 6 more yet of a brothers & sisters so help me Gawd.Oh uh Iam doomed. Iam..ill be Damn! Ayayay! :(

So back to my forthcoming day of birth..I celebrated last year like semi Big time.It had to be.I felt i had too many reasons to celebrate that time.

1. I turned 25 (OFFICIALY 0n mid 20's.My ears hurts at the sound of it.I remember how books or people classify age by early teens,early 20's,late 20's,early 30s etcetera etcetera.Argggh! )but Twenty five is like Something. like extra special and worth spending bucks for.Im not really like hey-shawty-its-your-birthday-where-gonna-party-like-its-you-freaking birthday type of person..but i tried being one last year..Anyway So much for the insight.
2. I passed the Board so that makes me a licensed Dentist at 24 (not that i dreamt to be but Alhamdulillah i am Now Praise the Lord!) Check.
3. Im celebrating my day to an extremely New place.New foreign country so to speak.Something i have never ever imagined ill be one day.Not even in my sleep or never had it occured in my day and night dreams.I have always have these weird dreams and stuffs.Like ive been with Jarule.Bff with angel locsin.Pass thru The Sharon Cuneta.Even made duremdes a taxi drive Me and more.but Nada of flying to Doha..call it Destiny.or something.but it was like a snap and im here mingling with diverse personalities and people from different parts of the world.like literally all over the map..Adjusting to the place,the new found friends and foes,Time zone,Foods,Homesickness and like MORE!! It was literally laid in my lap and all i had to do is pack my suitcases and Fly.. Reason enough to celebrate eh?! :)
4.Earning with your own hard toiled sweats and being able to share it. Having able to indulge and splurge a little..
5.And at 24 i think ive been finally swept on my heels over my head.i think! so 25 will be a little less like the past years.Double check! ;)

and for these Year: Same reasons and More!! IAM BLESSED.ALHAMDULILLAH.

2009-08-22T00:34:00.010+03:00

Ahlan wa sahlan ya sahro Ramadhan

Its around 1:15 in the night here in Doha and around 6:25 philippine time to be exact.My dear dear tommy hilfiger of a watch which was Then a gift of my folks (very sweet of them..) last year tells me..Weird it might sound (IAM WEIRD..) but since my being here in Qatar last October 16,2008,i hadnt re-set my watch(never will..) for weird reasons!! (told ya im weird..) My housemates couldnt find it in their heartiest Hearts to understand till now.Ya i know 5 hours difference blah blah it is and all i had to do is do the counting but Heck i just wasnt able to do it..Im keeping it AT IT IS till get back to Home.Insha Allah. ANYWAYS.that wasnt my purpose of bloggin. The fact of matter is ive Lost my writing capacity (as if i can..) or sumthing like that.haha. I cant find it.. Ive completely lost the will to do so .Ive been a i-must-write-everyday-happenings-or-i-will-choke-to-death type of girl since the world begun may it be in blog or my organizer or anything paper and Voila suddenly im not..I cant! Im trying to rekindle that old habit but i have hard time doing it.I wake up and literally fell asleep into my laptop trying to scribble anything bloggable but i end up yawning and in soundful sleep.

SO back on the Topic i was eager to write .RAMADHAN KAREEM.Its the time of the year i LOVELOVE Oh soo dearly has come with good tidings and so much more.When i was a kid i always correlate ramadhan with Watermelons and delicous foods and Tarawees but as i grow and mature i realize its a Holy month not to be taken so easily.It is time to repent,to ask forgiveness,to give love,to glorify his highness.To sacrifice and just be the best muslim in the eyes of God.Last year will be the most memorable not to mention my happiest to date.Every fasting month is but 2008 is just soo close to perfect.It was a Very first to me since my studying at Cebu at the age of 15.I may have not spent it with My 3 other sisters but it was sooo wonderful pa din..Remembering it just make me a lot more nostalgic and sentimental.

2009-04-28T00:42:00.019+03:00

back ON TRACK! Honestly.. i dont even know where to start.This has been by far the looongessssttt leave of absence ive had ever since i started blogging back in 2006. I mean its been like FOREVER and moore.I havent even written a single entry i since my being here in Doha..Ironic that internet is right at my face....So much things and more have had happened in mylife in that short span of time and i wasnt able to blab it out.I mean really really Blab it!! There had been too much firsts for me and all the stories in between That i was really dying to write but wasnt able to because i just had no energy to be pressing the keypads and i cant find the right words to fully expressed it..or maybe ive lost the will to write..(i think ill preferred the latter..) But ill be trying (Like really really TRY!) laying all these series of unfortunate and not-so fortunate events all thru out the year.Just Soon!! Im keeping my fingers crossed..;)

2009-04-24T22:55:00.003+03:00

Let the Picture do the TALKING! :)

2008-04-27T12:09:00.033+03:00

MANILA OCEAN PARK

these were the only snapshots i have got on my cp when we visi ted the oceanpark.i had seen it on tv and seeing itfor real was something i was looking forward to..But it was on a sunday,family day that is.and it was one helluva crowd.bunch of families and kids were all over the place..and its raining hard outside.BUt amidst the heavy rain.the oceanarium was jampacked ...as the saying goes: theres just too many fishes in the sea.SCHOOL of them btw.And finally ive found the nemo.Not that superb one.Way not One...Just thes e little ordinary zany fish in gills who's been keeping me in revelry and gaiety for reasons unknown.Who somehow manages to keep these fisher in jest and in a sleazy happy kinda funny way blah.which is not my usual self btw..But lets sea!!wink s..;) so As of the moment,let me dr own and plunge unto this unknown territory. and who knows..

been enjoying My vacation right on the metro.A big Pause to the tangles of the pasts whatevers.Im'ma bring on that sunblock and enjoy the summer sun.Just these now.Tomorrow is just so uncertain id really really like to get the exam out of the way but hmp..mission im possible!!! its just creeps back on and again. .

2008-04-26T12:48:00.022+03:00

MY BESTFRIENDS WEDDING

and im not gonna be there to witness such binding of love and see the my besty best be deliriously happy and overjoyed to lived out the dream of being with her man,the first and last boyfiend she ever had to be finally the one man she'll share her whole life through to be finally her husband..Arrgh.I know im missing out alot and i failed to be there on the day she will ever need me the most.

It somehow made me sad just thinking about it.I will fail to see the blushing bride she has become this day and how that happiness will transcends into her very eyes and how she would look as she awaits this same man he had love for almost 8 years be finally sealed as HERS.today.Not just an any given saturday but a truly special one.you deserve each other bes and im just so happy for you two..i hopre to be seeing little SHAdracs soon..aheheh! I may never fill up my absence ever again BUT know that im truly very sorry for somehow failing to be there for you.Ill make up to you thrice as much bes...heheh! BEST WISHES,..

2008-04-15T10:48:00.010+03:00

APRIL RUSH
After having spent almost four months in a row at home relenting into tedious domestic household works which had made my hands deeply in its roughest state and had somehow kept me continuously hollering into these lazy bone for a siblings to do their part of the deal,summarizes most of my stay. Hanged out with friends once in a while ,pigging out on weekends, lost in reverie in weekdays,staying visited old friends.basically Wasting time chillin and bumming around. After years of being used to the big city lights, night escapades and mall ratting with empty pockets.Its a whole new feeling. Less and less of loud streets is quite soothing to the ears somehow..Anyhoo,it was still FUN.FUN.FUN! =) went back at CEBU ryt on the start of summer.And as always.I HEART CEBU to BITS! finally gonna go leave cebu on the 16 to finish what i had started off late last year.getting a license!! half of it btw. the exam is taking a toll on me.cant even describe how its buggung me for months now.BUT i wont let it dampen my spirit even for just this one moment.lurve or not.im happy.NOW.at this very time.as we sip that very cup..WINKS*tomorrow is something ill look forward to..Wahtevur!*at starbucks wd my Besties! (winks*)

it was a late nyt sip and i felt so groggy and sleepy already! a treat from a friend..after a dozen ofsongs were sang and foods digested and tsismises laid

to rest..we need a cool down..and where else is the best place to sip on lattes while you go down memory lane? Starbucks!! :)

Aww what a cute pair red peep toe shoe and a ballet flats..

2008-04-08T10:42:00.010+03:00

ELIZABETH TOWN

Drew Baylor: You know, there is nothing greater than deciding in your life that things maybe really are black and white! And this guy Ben, who clearly takes you for granted, who serially takes advantage of you, is bad! And what I'm saying is good! See what I mean? You shouldn't be the substitute for anybody. This guy should be right here, right now, doing this [kisses Claire]

Claire Colburn: I want you to get into the deep beautiful melancholy of everything that's happened. Hollie Baylor: It takes time to be funny. It takes time to extract joy from life.

Claire Colburn: Sadness is easier because its surrender. I say make time to dance alone with one hand waving free.

Hollie Baylor: I was still waiting for everything to start, and now it's over. Claire Colburn: I'm going to miss your lips. And everything attached to them.

Jessie Baylor: May your loss be met with a hurricane of love.

2008-04-03T16:40:00.027+03:00

for she's a jolly a good fellow..

For shes a jolly good fellow..and nobody can deny! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEINEIKINS! i thought of greeting you right on my blog just so you could know how much i value you and the friendship we have built right on and the great days that awaits us and we'll look forward to.You know we'll still be the best of friends..single,married or unmarried in the years to come.hehe.we may settle down at the age of 30 plus and be very pregnant hopefully a year after and still we'll be friends.heheh..We have been pretty much together thru the bad hair days, the big t-shirts days ,the boyband invasions,song hits craze and up till now.We have been the pedicab partners and together we will always be..haha.Thanks for the wonderful friendship,the happy times and the rainy ones..For listening and just being there for me thru it all.The Self pity days we once had and the im-so-wawa-street we were able to get over with.For being my Ahjussi and Omonee.For being such a perpetual sunshine.for the hearty laughs,the loaded chikas and the tsismises.for the secrets shared and kept..and for the wonderful years that has passed our way.I wish you all the besteest things in lyf and a super colorful lovestory aswell..hanap tayo! Happy beerday bes! wuv u lots.=)

2007-08-08T15:47:00.011+03:00

BLABBERINGS..

hmm..Ive been meaning to write little sediments of what had been going thru me and my non-exciting life lately but everytime i try to do so,i end up doing another thing..The previous post was darn Emo i had to remind myself that ill always be that..Sappy and Mushy.hard as i try not to be.Meet up with Raz and Nadz just lately. Another Coffeedate.Its always fun having them around.I could be supeeer madrama and crazzy and theyre fine with that.and I cant believe ive actually shared up those feelings i had kept all along and That has surprised me in a way.Well,it was sure a night of surprises..Much have been said that night..Argggh.I want mooore..( those btw are the superliscious yummies we pretty much drooled on at.looks darn good ayt? taste even bettah..Yeah1! Went home on the friday night.I was tired and dead beat but i hurriedly packed up my bag and head to pier so i wont be able to change my mind aswell.I missed my family a lot i had to see them before i head to wherever im headed..and i was then hopeful that ill finally have the chance to see my friend( which i didnt btw.I missed the Big barkada pictorial theyre having! aww,sad!! SOBS*..But girls.i had to do what i had to do.) I was then hopeful aswell that ill hve proven something that has been bugging me for over a while din..(which i was able to rin.and it hurts..) Bump up wd a fellow batch (k7) on our way to iligan..Good thing i was able to do so.My stay at home was so limited and fleeting that i woke up another day back at Cebu again..But atleast,i was able to do so..and It was darn worth it.. =)

2007-07-30T13:24:00.003+03:00

Twisted and More..

I was just doing fine at the start of the week.I had promised myself to keep my cool and worry not about everything. I was trying to be the carefree that iam not.I want to be fine and to just be over and done with these thoughts and what ifs that has kept on bugging me for aslong as i can rememeber.I was trying and slowly letting go of the grip of grief and try to be sunshiny and optimistic.But come friday and the rain and the pains and im back with a heavy heart.. friends have been pretty much busy with their own lives and the school dramas,they rarely make paramdam na.I miss xaxaberry and our major senti moments.Neinekins with our tsismisises,the search for a lablyf and the continous latenight chikahans we have.Peach,who have been very busy i hadnt heard from her that much.besprend..hes lost after the old issues were laid to rest and.the whole barkada.Gurlalooch,my walang pagod na katxTing which by the way has been a very gud friend to me after all this time.Nadz and razhel and the last lakad we had.sana may part 2.Shower,my partner in crime no more.I miss her sunny attitude and our never ending tsibugans along with gemai.i know the bond has change a lottt but i stll consider her a great great friend.My Lil Memay khit pacute xa and she sooo maldita and papansin but then i love her parin and all her siblings as well which are all cute talaga.Bunsong Che and her kakulitans aswell khit nakakainis xa and all,i still adore her nonetheless.Si Mocka na pasaway.I miss making sungit kay Mamad when he was still here and nung rummate pa nmin xa.Im surprised i miss him Bugging me to death.Simo,hamdan,Atchee and her swings of moods.c mudra and fudra and everyone back home...ang drama ng lola! hehehh...

2007-07-22T14:36:00.002+03:00

Another Given Sunday

Thought for the Day: I'm afraid of not having enough time. Not enough time to understand people, how they really are, or to be understood myself. I'm afraid of quick judgments and mistakes that everybody makes. You can't fix them without time. I'm afraid of seeing snapshots instead of movies.

Im Back to my Old Self...and Im Owkeey na! (biogesic anyone?).I know this might sound trivial and petty but i just feel like blogging it a little..heheh! Im just soo used to being plain Layzee bone and Idle on a n Easy sunday..Curl up at bed and watch till i my eyes drops and back to sleep again.Just be suspended on this four corners we have for a room and just be forgetful hany for a Day.Well,i do try to read Notes kuno pero cant seem to understand a darn thing..(ive been quite dreamy much too much ds past week!! Arghh..Shame on me..) I bet my friends are way burnin their lamps studying while i mope around and drool on tv..) So there i was Tv dipping(i hvent bought a single dvd for over a months already!!) I watched celebrities dance their thang on asap..(WOW..i cant even remember when was the last tym i moved my booty.But Oh i do still have these vivid memries by how i was forcily compelled to dance back in highschool just because i was then new to the barkada( and they participates in Programs thru dances!!) and being the eager pleaser that iam danced my feet away.It was a catasrophe but major fun..i feel ive made a fool out of myself but then it wasnt that bad..We were Cute!! =) (t'was No scrubs by TLC and Let me love you down of INOJ..) Nwe,Back to what i was saying..Brace yourselves!! this will be A major WHAAAAAAT??? but i dont friggin care anyway.heheh! Angel Locsin is finally transferring to ABS.yehey!there ive said it...)Im being to the bUZZ and tsismosa but hey its Okay to be Crazy on sunday...Shes one single local artista kc na i admire a lot kaya heytoo..nakiki-tsismis na ang bruha! Its nice that she finally tripped and realize that She deserve more than whats shes being given to by 7.Cant wait to finally see her On dos..yey!!

And oh my alaska Aces won today aswell.! Champion pare..This wud be their 12th and may i just say that Tim Cone is the Maaaan!! hes continously rockin the pba..ive been a major Bball fanatic back in 90's(i was jst then a freshie...) I still havent gotten over the dream to finally see Jolas in the flesh..I had a major crush on him back then.Im sure hes Old na by now but i still wish i could take a glimpse on him one day..heheh. =) Im glad im being the normal me this days.I ditched the cd ive been re-playing on and on.Hide it somewhere so i couldnt snatch it again and be back to what iam lastweeks ago.well,im tryin my very best to be NON-EMO already.hahah! I havent watched HarryPOtter pa rin.Been too caught up with something this days! But ill try
next week..I hope.Crosses fingers** :)

2007-07-20T11:40:00.003+03:00

Mushiness

ive been killing myself lately with this uber senti lovesongs.Self inflicted i must say and crazy and very me but somehow it fills up something..Im way promising myself that im gonna be over this twisted melodrama i have created and just be the plain old me guarded and fine and unfazed to anything pertaining to the four letter word.I need that Me Back!! Badly.. It was like a snap and there i was relentless,wishful and lost. not to mention Dreamy.This i think is the reason why ive choosed to be frickingly single for say 23 years?! I tend to be blank and wasted and hurt when thing such as this come blazing breaking my walls..Ive been through ds over and over again and i have done same thing..Maybe its being afraid to be weak,or the fear of somehow giving someone the right to hurt and pry on me or maybe im just not up to anything romantically in its sense.Hopefully by the time im done writing this and ive fully bent out all that there is to outpour,I hope this burning and piercing something im feeling right now be laid to rest aswell.I dont need this.Nor do i deserve half of it...I have got more loads to carry and more priorities to deal with.An old flame would be more than i can bear.And im A-Ok with that..No more wishful thinkings and wandering thoughts to consume me.Give me back my Peace!!

"Oneday he's sweet.The next day, im invincible.Tomorrow he loves me but the day after hes gone..Each day of my life ive been waiting for this one fleeting moment to stay.A part of me knows itll never come but over and over i fall..for so many countless reasons and when he comes back,i cant help but fall again.."

sometimes i wonder, if i really did love you. or maybe i just loved what i thought you were, what i merely wanted you to be. i was so blind, i couldn't open my eyes and see the truth of what you really were. and maybe if i did see you for what you were, i wouldn't have loved you as much as i did.

The traffic lights silently change a thousand times a day. but i'm still waiting, yeah. i'm still waiting..if my hand could block the sun, would we ever wake up? if i turned back all these clocks, would that be time enough? i can't remember exactly when the longing began, but i know it wasn't before the day you touched my hand.

i lost a piece of me in you. i think i left it in your arms. i forget the reasons i got scared,but i remembered that i cared quite a lot. if you see me at midnight ,walking the streets,you'll know it was me, for i cannot sleep. i've pushed away the dreams and spolied the quiet. i'm propelled by fear and not the righteous.

2007-07-13T10:24:00.008+03:00

The Comeback!

and so im back.. Yes. I have been entry-less in a while.I know this wont sum up the entire time i was in hiatus and gone somewhere mobbed with major issues and all. But this will do for now.June pass me by so quickly.I had my mini vacation in marawi.Enjoyed the luxuries of home with the family and nothing but good times with my besteest friends..Went down memory lane for the nth tym (its way beginning to be a routine already!!) Indulgingly daydream a little too much and the much awaited Sleepover came..Finally! (ahh..We were dream girls for One night only!! Just one bt it was A Blast!!)..

I miss the chilly afternoons in MSU mga bes,the rare walks to remember while gaping at cuties passing by and how we wishfully sigh for Mcdreamy to finally come tagging along True love. Aww..Where could they be? =) (xcept xaxaberry of course,she already found hers..the ever Lucky her!)

Fast forward and Me back at Cebu more confused and Dead beat whats next..I thought finishing school would be soo bed of roses but Crazy me..It wasnt! Its way larger and bigger than that. Welcome to the real world little One.. ;) Im still deciding you know.This is way HUGE..The Climax.the Turning Point.The Culmination.Whatever you call it! A major One ill have to deal with sooner or later.Something that will be hard and tough and heavy and everything.Infact its more like on deciding what will be of me for the rest of Haniyyah's life. And im not ready for any of these.Not yet! Just thinking about it makes me want to run somewhere.I hope i could for once be sunshiny and cheery this time... ; (

I have got more dilemmas to think,Personal Ones.Family Dramas.But God is gracious..Im turning a new leaf and i think a more stronger faith comes with that..May he continously bless us.Good health always to my folks..Just Over a week ago.My best bud and i over imagine things and We were todo emote talaga..I pour all my worries to her and somehow it lessens the burden i was feeling that day.Bes,grabee den a kyapagemote ta oto.I wont forget it! Tnx for being there all the way.

I have got to include this here.After Me being lazily stucked for weeks in dorm gazing and dreaming day and night in the rooms gloominess..i was finally able to wind around and see the sun.A stress breaker.Went out with my two equally good and old friends which ive missed soo much.I love being with them.Maybe its razzhel's infectious sunny disposition in whatever circumstance that comes her way and the humor thats very Her.Or how i and nadz are somehow twofolds in a way and a contrasting poles at the same time.NBSB or Not..Its more of the real and genuine friendship that we share that stand outs.One that i would surely keep.. =)

im stitchin back some pieces of my heart as well..Quite a revelation to me by the way.I somehow unconsciously lost my heart unto this someone and that this someone accidentally slipped thru my system without me realizing it or maybe he already is sealed Special even back then.Im not sure. Maybe i did fall a countless times before.On the sly.I wish we werent too friends or too complicated.Things might have been way different if we werent.I had to for go every feelings and empty every emotion and save us the misery. Maybe the cards just didn’t fall the right way.Right love at a wrong time or anuman yun..Or maybe i ws just accidentally in love.( twin,eto na nman tau.)but he'll be that certain someone that got away..touche eh?

Belated Happy Birthday Pops..(i knw he wont in anyway read this.But i love you the Moosttesst!Your the greaatest father in the whole wide world..) Maligayang kaarawan rin to my Sis and to all my friends celebrating ds July..Have fun. gotta end here muna! Take Care everyOne! =)

2007-05-23T16:04:00.002+03:00

RELIEVED.

Happy birthday Che! ;)

im still in disbelief.Yes.I woke up this morning and i was afraid to rise anxiously peekin through the surroundings.just checkin on.i might be on my crazy dream hopping for all i know.I opened my eyes and there my popsy dearest is sippin on a cup of coffee with no handle and my diagnosed OCD mother is right there rummaging everything she has set eyes on,wondering why her lazy daughters are that lazy and how immune they can be to stand such dusts and the topsy turviness of the whole room..Ah,this will be a long stoory when i get home.Ill get to hear the Must's and The importance of cleanliness and all the heck.And then there was my brother Hamdan in his deep sleep (of whom the reason why i graduated,i forcily took him and kidnapped him for almost 2 months now to drill holes into.haha..) and then my two sister were there aswell clicking and clicking picturing themselves like crazy ..So nope,i was no Dreaming! Yesterday was for real.

Im saddened by the thought that they will be headin home and ill have to be left alone with me and sometimes i cant stand myself. :(

MARCHING ON... Alhamdulillah :)

2007-05-22T13:02:00.003+03:00

Im finding it hard to believe that finally iam taking the next big step towards the indefinite future.that the time has finally been sweet to me.Im officially out of school drama..Im done with the long list of requirements. Im through with chasing and drooling over ungrateful patients and me begging for next appointments.Im way way Thankful for the clinical instructors who have imparted their expertise and knowledge to me.Some may had unfairly judge us and measured us by mere situations but Thank you nonetheless.We take that all as constructive critiscisms and parently advices in preparation for the beats and blows of the Real world.Years has been the sole judge of how i have wanted this Day to finally come. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah all praise to the Almighty one..There had been so many rough times toward this road.Tears have been shed and ive been holding courage so tightly till my grip starts to loosens.Questions were thrown a little too much.and i begun to lose patience..and i wonder if i could even have the strenght to last for another day.Those days where i want to curl up to bed and sleep a thousand miles away.Where i can be completely immobile and kill my wandering thoughts..Let silence take over and die for a couple of hours.and Just be lost in nowhere.

Im just soo glad that today.My day.Has come into its time.Finally ill be marching on.Its Sweeet! This is the moment i had been dying to reach.A new page is unfolding right in my very eyes.Let bygones be mere bygones. Iam gonna embrace it and Hope for the very Best!! I have my togas ironed to its best and yes Iam ready World.. :)

2007-05-17T07:29:00.004+03:00

CHEERS to me..

Good Gawd,Thank you.. i have finally(it took me years and years of studying.sleepless nights,hungry stomach,anti depressants,headaches,petty allowances,Zero love interest,less compassionate clinical instructors,ungrateful patients and etcetera,etcetera plus1 long,winding,twisted year of clincal extension by the way ..Lazy bone eh?!) finished my requirements.We're working on our clearances this days.Its hard going through all this lists of blahs and certain someones for their highly needed signatures..I thought it was a piece of cake and it wasnt completely the opposite..It entails soo much great walking and all those stuff and i still am in complete disbelief that finally Oh dear Lord,iam finally marching on!! Imma be a Graduate!! (SHOUT OUT LOUD!! YEHEY! YEHEY! YEHEY!) after so much nerve wracking moments and agonies and pains and everything in between before reaching this line(Ah..What a relief!) .I honestly didnt even imagine myself getting here(But im Glad i did reach it..)The ever Very pessimistic me.I just love to love indulging on the negative vibes.Crazy me huh?! i dont know but i tried and tried harder but i just cant be so sunshiny me for reasons i dont even know.What makes its sooo ironically ironic and funny is that i was always the kind of person who sees the positive sides of others.I was never the judgemental type.I have always been a firm believer that everybody should be treated a somebody.But i cant seem to apply into myself.hahah! how complicated could that be?

Me deserve a treat! a large crispy fries,cheese burger and a coke floating on an icecream will do..=)

2007-03-10T17:38:00.003+03:00

Pigging out at Shakeys! :)

School can really be so much tiring this days.So much running and hustlin and bustlin for the load of requirements to lessen up.I was out with friends and we did some pigging out. the usual strollin at the malls,Stroll ng stroll hanggang mahilo..Window shoppin and always window shoppin..We had soo much appetite to beat.A supersize CheeseBurger pizza and a Unlimited Drinks for our intestines to swim at.

just for the three of us..

2007-01-04T14:59:00.001+03:00

Misery dear..

softly the music fades and slowly i feel the pain.

it continously seeps through me and achingly i endure it in silence.

Winds of time flashes back and again i get lost in a distance.

The dim light is darkened by sheer thoughts.

Unraveling the miseries in a box.

Tomorrow is mysteriously blank,

Yesterday was a memory and today

is but a sweet certainty.

My eyes are browned yet they convey heartbreaks

and failures in a blink.Spoken words escapes

my lips yet letters remains unwritten.

Love is faraway and tainted dreams begins to crumble.

I run yet caught by no one.And i jump and hopped..

Still, iam nowhere in sight.

I sang with emotions unmasking every teardrops.

I smile yet my eyes denied the twinkle. Iam but a confused SouL.

Tired and Willing.Hopeful and Wishing.

Broken yet Mending.Weak and standing still.

Alive yet seemingly Dead!

Breakaway will be my escape...

and there i would set and shine.

My Sun will pour.and The rain will shine.

and Maybe..there lies my Happy ending.

And maybe.. a frog prince awaits me.

A lovely duckling waiting to be Swan.

But i guess it will unfold only in my

SLUMBER!

Oppps! I did it again..This is me being a badly bruised Emo.

I cant help it sometyms!!! Darn it..

2006-08-21T11:42:00.003+03:00

My new abode..

Yipee..Finally i have my own blogger account.Now i can rant around here without being deeply scrutinized like that of friendster.Its just sooo complicated in there that i cant seem to hitch on the fast phased whatevers and the 24 hour on lookers waiting to devour on the latest tid bits about everyone and just everybodies businesses..Like duh!! Why do you care.Get a life!! Its just have gotten too overly superficial ..Iadore Friendster you know but i would want my Blogs and trains of thoughts not to be gigantically exposed for everyone to dissect.. Im just sayin!! :)